Crazy Girl, Don't You Know That I Love You...

I have come to the conclusion that I am incredibly lazy. Yea, I have yet to actually start doing anything yet, towards losing weight. I definitely have found that I prefer veggies and fruits over junk foods but there are a few times where junk food comes into play and takes top priority; like my TOM. Oh, yes, that is this week. Thankfully because if it wasn't then I would be on it for my boyfriend's graduation party, my graduation, my graduation party, or other important events.


I'm no longer going to try to play the misfit trying to fit in. I hate being fake and hate playing the game of finding out who your friends are by acting like certain people. I am a down home country girl who prefers moonshine over a brew and would rather wear jeans and a tank top than Tripps or skinny jeans. Those popular girls who dye their hair blonde with multiple colored high lights and low lights are not who I want to be. I want to be me and I know plenty of people who love and respect me regardless of what I wear or do or say or look like.


I do want to lose weight, but not for anyone else. I want to change out my wardrobe and wear pink if I so please. I don't want to hear "I've never seen you wear that before!" and I definitely don't want to listen to the he-said-she-said stuff.


Now Im getting off track. So I'm going to ramble about things that are going on in my life ASIDE from finding who I really am.


I'm supposed to be getting my glasses soon but the eye place is only open on Mondays and Wednesdays and they came in Thursday, which pisses me off. I have finals starting today and I could really use them over most of the things that I have handy. Today's final: Spanish level three.


I went to the dentist yesterday and found out that most of my crowding, jaw pain, and such is due to stupid wisdom teeth. And I also found out that because my nasal passages and nerves are basically wrapped up around the bottoms of the teeth, there might be complications so I have to have oral surgery (first SURGERY ever) at a hospital. They're also waiting until after graduation and such is over with to do the surgery and stuff which could end bad because I might not have insurance by then. Who knows. I just hope that we still have insurance by then because we wont be able to afford anything.


For graduation, I need so much. Between money for things and the actual items Im going to need...Its ridiculous! I need a dress and shoes (required for under our cap and gown), clothes that fit for project graduation (going to NYC!), sneakers that fit and support my feet, hair appointment the day of graduation (I dont want to look stupid with the graduation cap on), and college stuff as well my license and a car. Yep, that about sums everything up, I guess.


The dress I really want for graduation is about $60 at Torrid and is gorgeous. In case anyone doesn't know what Torrid is, it's the most amazing women's plus size clothing store in all of the world. Its a bit pricey but the clothing isn't like Walmart's plus size clothing lines. They aren't old lady printed or short legged or anything like that. They even have their sizes worded/numbered differently. A 0 isn't a 0 there, its a large. A 1 is an extra large, and so on. Such a great feeling to put on a 2 or 3 and not have it say 22 or 24. Anyway, enough promoting places that aren't paying me ;P


I want to go fishing, drink a little and relax in the shade. Stay out all night and watch the sun set and rise again. Go dance in a field like a fool and ride around in a pick-up. Yep, sounds like the good life. If my summer doesn't consist of any of this, I will not have lived my life to the fullest.


Anywho, I think thats enough for today. Enjoy your day/night.


Yours Truly,
Soph

Blinded by the...Whatever.

Yep, so in about an hour, I get to go be told Im blind and get fabulous glasses that accent my fat face. Oh well, right? Although, depending on the glasses, they could make me look sexy. I really need them and have needed them since my freshman year. My mother is just now getting around to taking me since I made my appointment and I still have insurance.
In one of my classes, we have to write a children's book. I wrote about three different stories then finally finished one. Its about a lion who gets a bone stuck in his tooth and is afraid of dentists. So, naturally, its jungle themed. I drew out my border for the pages. Its pretty awesome. Now Im just hoping that the actual illustrations match its awesomeness.
Summer is almost here and then Ill be in college after that. I can't wait because my college offers access to the beach and a gym. SO FREAKING EXCITED! Work out city, here I come. My knees have been killing me but I think it's because I've been nothing but lazy. I gave up trying to do the whole portion control thing because it wasn't getting me anywhere. Im such a procrastinator and it doesn't help that all of my senior stuff is driving me up the wall. I'll get there, and when I do, I'll rock it!
For now, Im going to watch Youtube videos and avoid classwork. (Im in a study hall but I don't have the materials that I need presently. So whatever :]
Enjoy your day and night!
Yours Truly,
Soph